seriously , alot alot . =x i'm sorry for all the times that i had disappointed you . i'm sorry for not listening to your advice to go home early . i'm sorry for not cherishing you . i'm sorry for not being there for you when you need me . but giving up won't be my last choice ; because it hurts to erase you away from my memories .
but thankyou boy , for giving me so much . being there for me when i need someone .
i just want you to be the someone that i can cherish for the rest of my life . i can't confirm what will happen in future , but all i can ever promise is that you'll be the only one in my heart . you're far more than just irreplacable . you had become part of me .
love , xueting .
YXueting.
22nd may , tuesday HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO XUETING ! :D hahas , got my nose piercing alrd . had a nice countdown night with my lovables at point ytd . and had a sweeeeeet day with them today at ilana's hse . :D i am tired alrd , and i shall not post so much . goodnight peeps . woainimen~
sometimes i really wonder if i shld let go , maybe aft all letting is a better choice . but you had been locked up in my heart so securely that i couldnt find the key now . tell me we had a chance , at least a chance pls . it seems like a torture to face you whenever your eyes met mine .
yes , i am strong . i always am . ^^
YXueting.
13th May , Sunday though everything had ended , but i felt really much much better than the previous really fking days I had , waiting for his answers . or perhaps I shld say , the obvious answers . -.- anyway , things are over alrd , and I am seriously not crying over it , nor am i going to continue to think of the past and be the one suffering . right cecilia and cherie ? (:
went for my bdae celebration ytd . :D and it was like so many ppl lurhs . and all of them are seriously swt when they all sang the bdae song & gave the presents . I was so touched . thankyou buddies ! in the evening , we went to jiayang's hse downstairs to slck . it was raining heavily , so we played dare&dare . it was so stupid lurhs , there were chicken dance , pole dance , strip dancing by the guys, guys lc-ing with guys , girls lc-ing with girls . sounds really interesting yeah ? xD and guys hugging each other like magnets and swing them 360 degree till all of them were like so giddy . xD and guys piggybacking girls and turning 20 rounds till both of them seh diao . and there's even girls kissing the guy cheek &lips , or vice visa. cecilia kissed everyone cheeks lurh ! so swt ! xD I got a birthday kiss on my cheek by cherie & cecilia . :D the last dare I shall not reveal , it's the worst but the most daring one . nevertheless , done by the birthday girl ! :DDD
and after tht , cherie went to buy beer and we all drank our hearts out . cecilia & I were drunk . and cecilia mistook me for cherie and started beating my butt . lol ! i wasn't really drunk lurhs . I just kept vomiting & I felt really warm . my whole body was burning lurhs , and jiayang took care of me till i was ok . and he called ppl to fan me . waha ! birthday princess ! :DD and in the end left me , jiayang and weiseng , the rest went to the carpark roof . and jiayang had to piggyback me all the way up 5 stories ? :D haha ! poor thing . and weiseng was so paranoid that we both might fall on him . lols , and all of them sang birthday song on the roof for me . and i mean everyone . even the boys . english , chinese , hokkien version . so touched , and all gave a handshake or a birthday kiss . after that , we went dwn to point . jiayang , weiseng they all settle somethings , and i went home after that , chatted on the phone with jiayang awhile , and went to slp . :D
i am so happpppy ytd ! [: narhs , here are the pictures of some really swt stuffs .
ai wo hao marhs ? (: i don't knw what had really happened , but i hope you'll tell me one day . and no matter what it is , i will still love you as much . <3 don't give up, honey. don't leave me alone .
YXueting.
6th May , Sunday 5 more days , and exams are over lerhs ! :D I can't wait . we won't fall apart right ? anyway , spend my friday having lunch with zhiting and all . they're really really sweet and nice . and after that , went to meet JY and all , talked to him abt some stuffs , and met this new friend called joaan . [: she's really sweet. ^^ and i think JY's addicted to her. ;DD Met jiahao too ! ohmygosh lurhs . long-lost friend arhs ! xD he came back from mia-ing . and he was like " omg , so long nvr see you lerhs , you cut hair arh ! " and i gave him a 'zzz' face . waha ! me and him started talking abt past things , and he even rmbed that i went his hse on the 24th of december last year ! which i forgot alrd. :x so touched yeahs , and reminsced the days we went out to slck , did lots of stupid things . now i really miss the past times , when i really let go of lots of things after much thinking . (:
The times we spend on the phone gossiping , and the days we ton all tgt , playing with oranges . -.- ok i knw all these are lame , but it really made me smile everytime they do silly things . after that , i went home tgt with JY . [: i missed honey for that whole day . :/
i knw we can make it , i really feel that we will . (:
爱你好幸福。<3
i am on serious diet ! watch it ! xDDDD
YXueting.
2nd May , Wednesday chinese paper sucked again. ): one whole section I don't knw what the hell it meant . 5 marks gone for good. :/ studied with roujun & beverly after sch . went hg mall , and got into the mood of zooooomblehing ! xD and i got my pair of double earhole ear rings . hahas , after that we went compass point , met siming , happy , dwayne they all at burger king . some study , some eating. we went ard to walk walk , nth much at compass point , so returned to burger king and mug for half an hour . got into mood swings after that . yeah , fuck the moodswings . :/ god-knows-what-happened-to-me . heard from honey that i was cold to him . i am sorry honey ! but i didn't mean it , just ... *screams* i don't knw what got into me , and i started thinking abt some silly things . and i think i going to blow up soon . anytime , anyplace , any moment . oh great. ): and thankyou beverly and roujun for trying to cheer me up ! <3
i am really moody today , seriously tired and restless . i think i am not myself anymore . :/
sorry honey , don't bother abt me , i am insane . hahas . [:
YXueting.
1st May , Tuesday labour day ! :D
so peeps , as you can see , i removed my tagboard just like charlene . ^^ so if you miss me , comment me on friendster ! :D hahas , and i will definitely reply . because i want my blog to be free of nonsense , esp from spammers , and let you sweeties out there to have a clear and relax mind reading my post . [: i know i am very nice. xD
YESTERDAY anyway , ytd's exams sucked . it was hell loads more difficult than i imagined it to be . rahs ~ and i just plainly scribble my hesitant answers . i think i am gonna flunk it . ): made honey quite disappointed previous night when i think i 'accidentally' hung up both his calls . :x and did not reply both his msges . but he sent me home after exams ! xD and he 'bought' a tub of Haagen-Dazs chocolate ice cream at rivervale plaza's ntuc , and brought it to my house and we shared . yummmyyyy ! xP
but honey prefered strawberry flavour but there wasn't any left . ): and he was disappointed again . guess what , i am gonna get him the strawberry flavoured one and store it in my freezer ! :D after that , honey left and i had maths tuition . it went rather smoothly and revised through loads of papers . after tuition , honey came my house again to pass me a pants he got for me . and the size was just right ! :P can't believe honey was so accurate lurhs !
after that , he went off to meet his friends , and i stayed at home and mugged. (:
spiderman 3 is out today, and i can't watch it with honey . )': so i promised him i will , after the exams . :D just 10 more days to exams end , be patient honey ! <3
Wishlist!
# Blue, purple & brown contacts
# A new pair of spectacles
## shed away 3kgs of fats!
# grow taller!
# adidas jacket ( crown design; for male )
## urgent !nose piercing
### get a part time job
# black and white shorts at kovan
# Levi beige-coloured shoes
# new phone.
# hello kitty glitter necklace. :DD
# thin red belt.
# red-coloured tamagotchi!
# fleshimp bag
# glitter font tshirts
# glitter watch
# japanese socks with black and white strips.
# strawberry rubberband .
# ipod nano .
# black cardigan .
# double holes ear rings .
# CASH. xD
Agenda 9th April . Zhizhong's birthday. 14 April . Homecoming. 30th April . exams started. 11 May . exams ended. 22nd May . MY BIRTHDAY.
26th May . June Holidays !
4th june ~ 11th june . japan trip .
